try texting her?
Life just suddenly started getting better for me but as always it all goes downhill without me being happy with myself for a few days. I should be happy with what happened, deep down, I know I wanted this just not this way and at this way. For every thing I want there is always a couple of consequences. I either choose to make one person happy and feel guilty about it AND lose so many friends or just forget that one person, still feel guilty and still lose so many friends. Whatever I decide to do is just gonna fuck me up anyway. I’m sorry for what’s going to happen to everyone that is related to this. I won’t ask for forgiveness but I just want to apologise. I will make up for it. Fuck, I’m such a shitty person.
I remember you telling me “Ignorance is not bliss, it’s rather frightening” at the most random time. I still remember the look you had while laughing at my perplexed expression. But only now do I realise what you meant and where you got that line from haha. Oh how I miss you Julia..